I'm very sorry to hear about your brother....I am here if you need to talk. Or vent, or whatever. I totally understand what you must be feeling. My younger brother is getting ready to see the doctor about his first chemotherapy treatment. He does not have cancer, but has the worst and most aggressive form of multiple sclerosis. Without the chemo, he doesn't have very much time. We have struggled, but finally found a doc to accept his medicare. He should have already had the chemo by now. So, I too am afraid of losing a brother right now as well. I will add him to my prayers, seems I am doing lots of that lately.